If I'm being honest...

I'm not being honest.

I promised myself I'd write here on a regular basis. After 9 months I haven't. But can you blame me?! Wonderful things have happened since the last post I published.

I am now a father. My wife and I are beyond elated to have given birth to a healthy, gorgeous, and very happy boy. He dazzles us every single day.

After having lived in Atlanta for two years, we relocated to Chattanooga, TN, about 120 miles away. I still commute to work 3 days a week and at this point, I'm going through audio books of authors I've been most curious about: Life After Google, Life After Capitalism, Dare to Lead, Start With Why, Man's Search For Meaning, No Bad Parts, and The Art of War. I also make voice memos of thoughts I'm mulling over and story concepts I want to flesh out so I can publish them here, or make into an AI generated movie.

I've changed a lot since leaving Los Angeles two years ago. I still love to express myself and make people laugh and cry. But, I've gone from an actor looking for representation in ATL to a web admin for a Georgia state government agency. That there has changed the way I think, bringing out of me dormant ideas and modes of leadership for owning projects and making calls with which direction a web product should go and how the general public will experience it (aka UX design).

Those things are natural to me. Easier than writing a song or a script. Yet in my heart, I feel things that long to be realized and manifested in tangible form. My goal now is that my wife and son (and future children) will get to experience these things for themselves so they too can both share in my feelings and understanding of life. The by-product of which, someone, like yourself, will benefit from should you get to experience the art I am anticipating to make.

I will say this: I'm earning more money now than I have in a long time and yet I still am coming up short of fully meeting my budget goals - necessary ones for that matter. I realize now I cannot wait till I have the $$$ squared away before feeling clean and clear in my conscience to do an artistic venture that has no promise of ROI in material form.

I have faith that regardless, "the Lord will provide". It will look different than what I originally anticipated. But I know it will be worth it. And, for that, it's worth my life.